Hate Others

3-27-08

Well I’m so sick of people trying to get me to hate others. I think it is so stupid and very childish. If I could dream anything away it would be my self not for the fact that I’m not cool but for the fact that I wouldn’t have to be here when the world destroys its self with its selfishness and pettiness. Its stupid how one persons words can be twisted into something heinous and totally wrong. If I could dream of better people I would but then who would dream me up.

Courtney

In the End

In the end
By me ( Courtney)

I fear what I never had
I cry when I have no tears
Alone is how I feel each day
When life is all I despise
And cold is all I feel
It’s hard to wake up to sleep again
Dreams where I finally feel free
With my heart smashed and hurting
I wonder why I live
Rain seems to be my friend
Snow is my protector
With all my thoughts
I am alone with pain
With only hope of it ending
I live to see another day
In the end the pain may be great
But meeting you has changed my life

Clear Creek

Clear Creek
By Courtney

I loved clear creek because it was an experience that will last me a lifetime. It was hard for me to leave because I felt so at peace with myself and the others around me. I made new friends and earned a deeper relationship with the friends I already had. The one thing I will always remember about Clear Creek is how we all came together and became one great big family. We didn’t care for just ourselves but for the entire group.

Slow Dance

SLOW DANCE
Have you ever watched kids?
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
Do you run through each day on the fly?
When you ask how are you?
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed with the next hundred chores Running through you r head?
You'd better slow down don’t dance so fast.
Time is short the music won't last. Have you ever told your child, we’ll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste, not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch, Let a good friendship die Cause you never had time to call and say, 'Hi' you'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast Time is short. The music won't last.
When you run so fast to get somewhere you miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day, it is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.
Life is not a race.
Do take it slower Hear the music before the song is over.

Courtney

Poem

Pain
The nights that passed us by
With me holding you as you cry
In your eyes I see the pain
Yet I hold back and maintain
I know you think he loves you
And yet he hits you and tells you what to do
The light I saw is gone
Your eyes are empty now too
My thoughts now sit still
Hoping the cuts will heal
Your beauty and grace
Is seen in your face
Slowly you go cold
And yet your hand I still hold
Asking the one question why
Why was he the reason you had to die?

-Courtney

Journal

Poetry is the window to my soul. I express myself thru poetry. I like to talk but when I can’t talk or when I’m scared to talk I write. I have over 250 poems from when I was 10 to now. I have many years of pain, sorrow, joy and happiness in my poems. I’m glad I like to write.

Courtney